Sonia grabbed her keys off of the table and left without a word. The keys on the ring clinked together as she turned them in the ignition pulling her car away from the curb. She was sure that they would wonder where she had gone, but she didn’t care. She needed to not be a home. There were too many voices talking to her there, throwing opinions at her that she didn’t want and only left her more confused than she had started.
It wasn’t like any of them meant any harm. They all thought that they were helping, in some sense of the word, the situation at hand. She had never had to deal with something like this before and it both scared and intrigued her. However, she didn’t know what to do with half of what was handed to her so she turned to those she trusted most. Sonia knew this wasn’t always the best option, but she asked anyway and now there were too many voices telling her what she should or shouldn’t do and it was just…too much.
She drove silently chasing the bars of sunlight down the pavement as they broke through the clouds. The densely packed buildings of the city slowly melted away giving way to the golden fields of the countryside. Sonia rolled down her windows letting the wind whip her hair around her face as she tried to empty her mind. Thoughts flooded her mind making her cringe as she was forced to face some of the stupid shit she had said in moments of nervousness. It was always like turning on a faucet that couldn’t be turned off when she was nervous which meant she had some very interesting things to cope with as she drove.
Sonia had no idea where she was going. She didn’t exactly care. All she knew was that as long as it was quiet and solitary, she would be fine. A lake began to form along the horizon as her car cut in and out of sunlight and she smiled to herself turning the wheel to take her down toward the water, parking along the small shops and cottages that lined the shore. Stone steps lead down to the rocky beach, a concrete pier jutting lopsided into the water. She picked her way carefully across the uneven surface planting herself at the end of the pier letting the water lap at her feet. She breathed a sigh of relief as her mind slowly cleared itself of the chaos for the first time in days.